Had trouble sleeping last night so I had a lot of time to think. I had fallen out of my self-care habits and hadn't opened my Finch app in over a month. I finally decided to open it back up today and updated various tasks to match up with what I'm doing now. I started off today by washing up a bit, brushing my teeth, and doing a Tarot pull using the 3 card spread I mentioned in my last post.


Card 1 - Card to describe my day as a whole.
For this I pulled Death (Upright) which represents change and closing an old door to allow a new one to open. This is most likely referring to the self-care I mentioned earlier and getting back into working on myself. Today it rained and it feels cleaner and I feel more awake.

Card 2 - Something important I should be mindful of today.
For this I pulled Four of Swords (Reversed) which represents burnout and stress. I need to be mindful that my heart is willing and needs to relax but my brain is what's holding that back. Which is true. I have a habit of constantly feeling like I need to do something to "be productive" and I never give myself enough breaks. Today I should give myself that time to rest mentally.

Card 3 - What to embrace to have the best day possible.
For this I pulled Ace of Spheres (Reversed) which is specific to my deck and I'm still learning to understand. I tend to use outside resources with my guidebook to help me better understand my deck. The keywords for this card are delay, and difficulty getting started. At first I was confused on what this meant for what to embrace today so I pulled a fourth card for clarification.

Card 4 - What is card 3 trying to tell me?
For this I pulled Six of Wands (Upright) which represents success and victory. I feel these cards are trying to tell me to embrace the progress I've already made. For the last few years my Fiance and I have been struggling in various ways and we're finally moving in a direction. The issue with this is that I physically can't see the direction we are moving in so I'm worried we aren't making progress at all, even though we are. This is a mindset I've been struggling to fight for a bit.

After doing this pull I honestly felt more rested even with having such difficulty sleeping. Last night during my sleep struggles I also did more digging into my deck because I was curious of its origins. I learned that it's actually a really good deck for shadow work which really explains a lot for how I do my pulls and how the cards respond to my questions. I do have another deck that was gfifted to me by a friend that I should probably look into at some point. It's called Cthulhu's Vault which is a deck inspired by H.P. Lovercraft's Cthulhu. I haven't personally read it but my friend realized the deck wasn't for them and I plan to collect decks so I thought why not grab it.

My main tarot deck is The Black Tarot. It wasn't my first however. My first deck was a flower themed deck that I later gifted to my friend after getting this deck. I really liked the flower deck but The Black Tarot deck really called out to me. I have yet to see another deck that gave me the same feeling as that one.